Well, I’m finally writing again. I never was good at this journal thing, but I’m trying again. The pain is just too great today, I have to find a way to let it out. Aiden and Seth, I miss you so much. I have Haley here with me now, and that is great. She’s doing fantastic. She’s doing really well in school, and she’s reunited with her friends from church. But like me, she misses you both very much. Sometimes she cries. Sometimes I do, too.
I would give anything to hug you guys once again. I miss putting you up on my shoulders. I know you’re both too big for that now, but I still miss it. I even miss Seth’s talking non-stop. I know a little about both of you, from what Haley has told me. I know Aiden wants to be a pilot, and loves to cook out on the grill. I know Seth is an amazing singer, and even does opera singing! I wish so much that I could talk to you about these things.
I’ve missed you both every single day, but for some reason, today it hurts more than it has in a long time. I try to stay hopeful, but lately it seems like hope is nothing more than a tease for me, a promise that continually goes unfulfilled. I’ve wanted to cry all day. I wonder if you guys ever miss me.
I miss when I used to participate in Seth and Aiden’s Tae Kwon Do class. I was so proud of both of them, and I loved being a part of their lives!