Me holding Aiden at only a few months old. That is one proud poppa! Still proud of this guy, even though we’re both a bit older now.
He may be a proud poppa himself one day.
I hope when that day comes, I get to see it..
I’m holding Seth for his adoption hearing! Aiden gained a brother that day, and I gained a son. Seth was a bit challenging at the beginning, but he has grown into an intelligent, passionate, and compassionate boy. I have high hopes for him, even if I can’t be with him right now.
Haley’s Adoption day! I was so proud to have her join our family! Having a daughter has been one of the greatest joys of my life. I am so proud of the young woman she is becoming.
Another early picture with Aiden. He’s taking a bite of a pork rib on one of our camping trips. We’re still very much alike. I understand he’s pretty good at making ribs himself now. I hope one day we can share ribs again (but not like this!).
These three were my reason and my strength for completing Army Basic Training! I can’t think of a better reason, a more powerful motivator, or a sweeter reward for coming home!
Seth and me just goofing around.
He always was a smart kid, and has a great heart as well.
He’s not a little kid anymore, but I will always cherish these memories.
Going with the kids on their first day of school.
They were so proud of me, just like I was proud of them.
I am still very proud of them, even if they hate me now.
Aiden was so proud to be just like his daddy! I understand he’s still just like me, even though he probably doesn’t want to be.
But I will always be a part of him, and he will always be a part of me.
And I will always, ALWAYS love him.
Haley’s 10th birthday. I’ve missed so many of her birthday’s since this one, but I’m glad I won’t have to miss any more, since she’s living with me again.
Just goofing around with Aiden, like we always used to.
I miss these times. I wonder if he remembers them?
Saying goodbye to Seth for my deployment. This was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I know he still misses me, even if he’s had to push that feeling down deep, and pretend that he doesn’t. I miss him too.
Enjoying a few last moments with Haley before deployment overseas. She’s still daddy’s little girl.
So difficult to say goodbye.
I still feel like this…
all the time.
A proud father with his three proud children. This was us all being reunited after my deployment in 2010.
We’ll all be reunited again one day, even though I can’t say when.
It’s been way too many Christmases since we’ve been together as a family.
All three of them are STILL my family, and they always will be.
This is all three of them with their Uncle Scott. When their relationship with me was severed, it wasn’t the only relationship they lost. Extended family feels the sting of loss as well. Scott and Amanda can’t wait to see them again.
This is the last picture I have of Aiden and Seth, and for a long time, it was the last one I had of Haley as well. This picture was taken at the end of April, 2012. Nearly five years ago now. They’ve all grown so much, although I didn’t get to see it. I don’t know when I’ll see the boys again, or if they’ll even want to see me when I do. I’ve missed them every single day; sometimes so much that it hurts.